Index - Profile - Archives - Notes - DiaryLand - Random ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Right after I finish this one. I feel like I'm settling, so this butterfly feeling is in my chest, making me want to run away crying as fast as I can. I can't convince myself that going to work is harmless, that I will not be hurt by being away from the house for 10 hours, that I can do this and still do other things. But my eyes are burning from my cigarette smoke, and my stomach is churning, and my hands are shaking. When I don't want to do something, it's not as simple as saying I don't want to. Something tells me I'm neurotic. 7:01 a.m. - 2003-03-17 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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